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Name: Emmyrose
Home: Philippines
An engineer by profession but I have always been a writer at heart. A simple girl with big dreams of becoming a person that God wants me to be. My life used to be perfect, at least that's what I thought.. until I was struck by an invisible disease called Lupus & everything in my life changed. I gotta adjust with a lot of stuff. I used to be depressed about it but I'm learning to trust God more & hold on to my faith. I'm not really sure yet of what life has to offer but I plan to live my life as meaningful as possible.
Home: Philippines
An engineer by profession but I have always been a writer at heart. A simple girl with big dreams of becoming a person that God wants me to be. My life used to be perfect, at least that's what I thought.. until I was struck by an invisible disease called Lupus & everything in my life changed. I gotta adjust with a lot of stuff. I used to be depressed about it but I'm learning to trust God more & hold on to my faith. I'm not really sure yet of what life has to offer but I plan to live my life as meaningful as possible.
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Saturday, August 22, 2009
Is your home protected from robberies or even fire? We can never really foresee the awful things that could happen to our cherish home and we must always be secured that if anything happen to it we can still be protected. It is important to have a home insurance that will help you have a peace of mind and sleep soundly as we all needed.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
My brother recently quits his job as a graphic artist because it does not pay well and he is not enjoying himself at that company. Although I know it was a risk resigning from that job because he might have a hard time finding another job but I fully supported him because I think you should be enjoying yourself while working and you should be compensated enough for your work. He is thinking of getting into call center outsourcing because the job pays well but I don't think that is his area so I suggested to find a job that he can grow as a person, and hopefully he 'll take my advise.
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There is nothing I want more than to be somewhere else. I am terribly bored in staying here at home for so long and I just want to be away and travel my heart out. I dream of being in a hotel just like the hotels in miami florida and feel the luxury and comfort of being there. I also would want to stare at the magnificent beaches of the area and enjoy myself in the terrific nightlife. Goodness, when can I ever leave home.
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Monday, August 17, 2009
Are you looking for a new life? or maybe you want to move in another place that will help you move on and let go of some of the things that you must left behind. Moving is not easy but with the help of moving companies Los Angeles you can easily get your things without a hassle and moving will not be as difficult as you thought so.
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Time is something we cannot turn back, some precious moments can never be replayed but thank goodness we have camcorders. Now, we can have souvenirs of those important time in our lives and we can have it recorded and played over and over again. It is true that we can never turn back time but at least now we can somehow save some of it.
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Sunday, August 16, 2009
I'm in love! I just wish I could blurt it out but I can't, I don't wanna tell a lie. I am no way near on being in love but I have to admit that there is someone very special in my heart right now, although I just know that love should be the last thing in my heart right now. Love remains to be elusive for me, or maybe it is simply not meant for me. There is so much going on in my heart right now, I am missing someone and he is hurting me and yet he's just not aware of the tears he's bringing to my eyes. When I saw him a few days back, I don't know whether to turn away or let our paths crossed but I just can't bring myself to be near him so I decided to just stare at him from a distance and I could feel my heart breaking all over again... my heart whispered when he started walking away, "there goes the one I love..." I looked at him until the last strand of his hair is out of my sight and I'll be content to remember that memory until the day I can see him again.
My heart is breaking, and there is nothing I can do about it.
My heart is breaking, and there is nothing I can do about it.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
For the past few months I have been suffering a lot because of my illness. It started last June of 2008 when I was stricken with Herpes Zoster in my right forehead which extended in my right eye that almost lead me to blindness. The headache back then was intolerable, I had to have my pain reliever with me every time and what’s annoying besides the awful look on my face was the four kinds of eye drop that I have to put in my eyes…
This is how I look like after some blisters are starting to dried out, it was so awful and painful, and it took so long before the blisters left my face I had to put a lot of face concealers just to look presentable.
After the Herpes Zoster I was able to live normally again, it was in August when I went to Singapore and for once I was able to enjoy myself together with my college friends…
After that wondrous trip, I went back to work and do all the things that I wanted to do.. September was fine but when October came I had to be hospitalized again because of my kidneys…
October is my favorite month because of my birthday but during this month I wasn’t able to walk and I have to wear a mask everywhere I go. My mom also got me a personal nanny that I found annoying because it made me feel helpless.
Months passed by and everything was starting to be normal again, I was able to do the things I love and I was happy. I feel normal once more despite having a nanny (which is not bad after all) I was enjoying myself and I’ve been going out with friends on my own again, traveling to Manila on my own and going to work in Makati on my own. It was a nice feeling although I have to wear a mask everytime, it doesn’t matter I just want to be out in the house.
March came and I was in high spirits, it was the last week of our Bible class in three public schools so I was busy preparing for farewell parties. I was also busy attending our church gatherings and I am also preparing for my mom’s secret surprise party… which turned out to be a blast and my mom was so overwhelmed and happy. But it was the night when I insisted on going with my church buddies to go to MV Doulos the ship bookstore, I always love to go there and I will never miss it for the world…
MV DOULOS the largest, oldest floating bookstore in the world
It was after climbing the upper deck that I felt the pain in my right thigh but I dismissed it right away because I want to pretend I am fine because I know my church friends are starting to worry because it’s getting late and the butterfly markings in my face are starting to appear but I told them I am fine. The next day I got a high fever, I was chilling and I had a terrible nausea and I couldn’t eat anything… Before I know it I was already being confined in the hospital…
April came and I’ve been sick the whole time but at least I was able to stand and walk, I can also go wherever I want as long as I have my nanny with me but the endless medicines are killing me…
It was May 16, when my nephrologist decided it was time for me to be admitted again, because my right thigh is swelling like a 5 gallon water tank and it’s so heavy I cannot walk anymore. It was also so in flame because it was so red and hot. It was also so painful that by merely touching it will bring me to tears. I underwent xray, ultra sound, duplex scan but to no avail… my doctors still couldn’t find what’s with my right thigh. After that I underwent Biopsy which had pure pus cells alone and the MRI confirmed that I have no tumor, it was only pus cells that’s inside my right thigh and they decided to operate right away. But I have a low hemoglabin and I needed 4 bags of blood, my mom texted everybody she knows because we needed 8 people to donate blood. It seems impossible at first to find people to donate but in just hours our church pastors came, some of our friends too and the people that came to donate was way beyond our expection. That night two bags of blood was transfused and I was scheduled for an operation the next day…
Honestly, I was scared it was my first time to undergo a general anesthesia and I’m not quite sure of what to expect.
The next day, it was around 10:30 when I was fetched in my room and the operating people prepared me for the operation, I could see my mom worried eyes and I feel like crying. The operation was scheduled at 1pm, I’m not sure what happened in between those hours but the next thing I knew it was already 3pm and I was being brought to the recovery room.. It was like I’m in a twilight, I know what happened but I’m not sure, I wanted to speak but there are no words, I told myself do I have amnesia…nope I still know everything I should know but why do I feel like I’m floating… I closed my eyes and fell asleep, it was already 4pm and I finally asked the nurse when can I go back in my room, he said in a little while and I asked him if I can drink water but he said I’m not yet allowed to drink water… so I closed my eyes again anthis time I prayed…
I was released two weeks after and it was a terrible experience. Right now I’m in wheelchair absolutely helpless and I couldn’t even sit on my own let alone stand and walk. I am such a burden to everyone and I just hate every moment that I have to lay down wait for someone to lift me up and carry me to the wheelchair. I even need my mom to dress me up, to bathe me and everything else. I’m losing hair too, not only my weight is starting to drop within normal and my hemoglabin is too low that I have to be injected thrice a week. I also take 10 different medicines in the morning, 5 at lunch time and 10 at bedtime. Being confined in this wheelchair until my operation heals is way too much for me. I feel helpless and I want to tell myself not to lose hope that somehow there will some better days but during my time of pain I just find it hard to believe. There are thoughts in my head that what if I’ll never get better that I’ll be stuck in this wheelchair forever or what if I’ll be such a burden with everyone that they would turn their backs on me eventually. I’m not sure of what the future holds but it’s a bit gloomy for now…
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Friday, May 08, 2009
I can't believe that it's been over a month since I last posted in this blog, I guess I'm just not in the mood to write anything about love and I simply don't want to entertain any mushy emotions right now. I am still very sick and love is the last thing on my mind, I guess I have to get over Lupus first before I can actually be inspired to open my heart again. I have been sick way too long and I've lost too much weight already, who says I need diet pills to be fit, I cannot fit into my clothes now but honestly, I'm not happy about it. I just want to get well and get back to my normal life.
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Can you still remember the time when cell phones, internet, and satellite TV never existed? Can you still picture yourself not texting or sending emails or even watching live stream videos? Goodness...
I have to admit that I cannot imagine myself not having access to my laptop especially not going online. I recently updated my hard drives to make it more faster and efficient.
Technology keeps on evolving and that's just the way it should be.
I have to admit that I cannot imagine myself not having access to my laptop especially not going online. I recently updated my hard drives to make it more faster and efficient.
Technology keeps on evolving and that's just the way it should be.
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Monday, March 23, 2009
It's been a while and I miss all of you weekenders. My weekends for the past few months were not as interesting as it should because I've been sick with my longest Lupus flare ever. I am still sick but slowly I am getting better. I hardly go out with my friends anymore because I still can't travel on my own but my family is always with me and last weekend was spent with my cousins, nephews and nieces. The summer heat is getting worse each day and there's no better way to beat it than go on a fabulous swim.
The water was so refreshing and the kids and the adults enjoyed every minute of it, I did!
So how was your weekend?
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Sunday, March 22, 2009
Life is a game. Sometimes we miss and get hurt, but that doesn't mean that we can never find love again.
This is a part of a letter from a friend when I was heartbroken and I just remembered her very words life doesn't end when heartaches begin, it only ends if we close our hearts and give up on love. It is difficult to forget someone, to let go of the memories that you shared with that person and to leave behind the dreams that you made together. One can easily say that its over and we must move on but how easy could that be when it is the last thing you'll ever want.
Letting go is a slow process, it takes time and it is a journey that must be taken on your own. Acceptance is the key and do not force yourself to forget someone precious to you because the truth is you can never forget, you simply get used to the fact that he is no longer part of your life. Don't be a prisoner of a past love, don't waste your time mourning over someone that's not meant for you.
Life is short, live it well and try to be happy!
This is a part of a letter from a friend when I was heartbroken and I just remembered her very words life doesn't end when heartaches begin, it only ends if we close our hearts and give up on love. It is difficult to forget someone, to let go of the memories that you shared with that person and to leave behind the dreams that you made together. One can easily say that its over and we must move on but how easy could that be when it is the last thing you'll ever want.
Letting go is a slow process, it takes time and it is a journey that must be taken on your own. Acceptance is the key and do not force yourself to forget someone precious to you because the truth is you can never forget, you simply get used to the fact that he is no longer part of your life. Don't be a prisoner of a past love, don't waste your time mourning over someone that's not meant for you.
Life is short, live it well and try to be happy!
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This is so true...
I just hope we have Spring here, I just love blooming flowers.
I just hope we have Spring here, I just love blooming flowers.
You Are Blooming Flowers |
 You are an optimistic person by nature. In even the darkest times, you are hopeful about the future. You feel truly blessed in life and can sometimes be overwhelmed with emotions. You have an artist's eye. You are always looking for beauty in the mundane. You have a good sense of aesthetics, especially when it comes to shapes and color. |
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"All the single ladies please circle around for the bouquet throwing"
I'm ranting, just how many more times do I have to put myself into that situation. I hate it when people assume that I have to get every bouquet in every wedding I attend to just to assure them that I'll somehow get married. Well, not anytime soon. 
I attended a wedding again and everyone was so surprised that I lost a lot of weight. Some of them thought I was in some kind of diet plan or medication and even exercising Kettlebell. Well, I'm not really sure why I am losing weight but I definitely feel good about it. Now, if only I can feel good about attending weddings.
Have a great Sunday!
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