Friday, August 31, 2007

I see the way you look at her, the way your face lit up whenever she’s around, the way you giggles when you talk to her. I feel the way you love her, and its making me sad. I wanna be happy for you just like any good friend should feel but I can’t help but thinking what if I was the one, could you be any happier? There’s nothing I can do, I am just a friend who is willing to love you, to care for you and I can’t go on pretending that I’m not hurting because your heart didn’t choose to love me. Is this how our story ends? Believe me, I tried fighting these feelings, tried to hide it but I guess it’s too late now I am in love with you, my best friend.

If I was the one you love. There’ll be no more tears of sorrow, only tears of joy. If I was the one by your side, you’ll never have a lonely night. If I was the arms you were embracing, I’ll give you so much love you’ll never ask for more. If I was the one in your life, I can’t even begin to tell you how beautiful our lives would be. If I could just have one wish, I’d wish you were mine. I would hold you near, kiss away your tears and love you like no other. You are the one for me, can I be the one for you?

You will never be mine. I guess it is simply not meant to be. She is there in your life and she holds your heart. The lonely nights I spent alone while you share your nights with her, this doesn't feel right. A friend is all you can see in me and I try to be just a friend but my heart knows otherwise you are more than just a friend to me. My heartbreaks every time you talk about her, my heart bleeds when you run to me and seek for advice. Am I betraying our friendship knowing that deep inside my heart I am wishing that you see me the way you see her.

If only I could be the one for you like you are the one for me. If I could just ask Cupid to make you love me, if I can be more than just a friend to you. I want to be beside you, to be near you, to reach you. Sometimes I wanna scream "I Love You" out loud. There are times I pray, that I’ll find the strength to tell you all the feelings that I try to hide. The raging emotions that’s been bursting in my head and hurting my heart. We are just friends and that’s enough for me. I’ll rather have your friendship than have nothing at all. But still I can’t help but wondering all the could’ve been if I was the one in your life.

===> The year was 2000 and he's been my guy bestfriend. Every pages of my diary has his name all over it. At first, we are just really friends but after some time we became closer and I suddenly found myself in love with him. It was rather difficult at that time since he had a girlfriend and I am just his bestfriend. So I tried concealing my feelings and let me tell you unspoken love truly is like poison it kills you inside. So, what now?? Seven years had passed and I am still his bestfriend and do I still love him?? Hmmmmmmnnn........

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3 Comments:

At 11:30 AM, Blogger Samara Leigh said........
Emmyrose,

That is such a beautiful introspective piece. Thank you for sharing.
 


At 11:28 PM, Blogger Not So Anonymous Michelle said........
Wow! How painful that situation must be!
 


At 9:15 PM, Blogger BB_ANNE said........
that hurts...i can only hope that you'll find the love of your life sooner..^^