Carrie: I'd like to think that people have more than one soulmate.
Samantha: I agree! I've had hundreds.
Carrie: Yeah! And you know what, if you miss one, along comes another one. Like cabs.

from SEX AND THE CITY, Unidentified Episode

Do you believe in soul mates?

Well, a lot has been said about it and as a hopeless romantic I used to believe that they were real. But I don't know if I'm just being too cynical or what but lately I'm thinking that I'm probably wrong.

Maybe somehow, I still got that fairy-tale notion that I could have my own happily ever after as soon as I found my prince but I just don't think he'll be coming anytime at all if he ever comes at all or if he ever even exists.

Am I confusing you now? Don't worry, you're not alone... I'm confused myself.

Do soul mates exists? Is there really someone out there just for you? Or is it just a lame illusion that we made up just to console ourselves.

I used to remember one scene from Sex and City when Carrie & Samantha were having a conversation about soul mates and I think they were right maybe we have more than one soul mate, we've got hundreds. Sure, its rather romantic to believe that there's actually one person made especially just for you but call me cynical or bitter but somehow I just don't believe it anymore. I used to be a hopeless romantic, believing in forever, one true love, soulmates and all those mushy stuff but somewhere in between the failed relationships and heartaches I became a cold-hearted person who probably still believes in love but not disillussioned by it anymore.

I admit - It's fun to be single, I love every moment of it but then again, sometimes I kinda miss having someone to text message when I get up and all day long... I miss planning a weekend with someone. I miss having someone who'd listen to my ranting and tantrums when I had a bad day. I miss those "kilig" moments that makes my heart beats faster. And mostly - THE LAST CALL. You know, that phone call you make or made to you just right before you sleep.

There are times that I wonder if I could still find my soul mate, or have I found him already but I just let him slip away or maybe he was the one that got away. I don't know. Cynical as I can be, but the hopeless romantic in me is very much persistent and somehow I still hope that there's actually one person meant especially for me and I'm hoping that my soul will recognize that he is the one and everything will work out well the moment our paths crossed.

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