It has been a very long day. I had my check-up today and although my laboratory results were not that good I am not that worried, I know things are tough right now but I completely trust God that He will make everything perfect in His own timing, I just need to be more patient. After my check-up we visited my cousin in the nearby condo, she just gave birth to my new nephew and I was suddenly reminded that I may never have a chance to be a mother because of my health condition. I don't wanna be sad about it but I really am.
I'm starting to receive gifts and greetings from my friends and everyone was telling me "30 ka na, mag-asawa ka na noh" (you're thirty, get married now) the pressure is much greater now and I don't wanna think about it, it will just be a cause of a more emotional turmoil... Of course, I wanna get married someday maybe I'm a bit cynical about love at this point but the hopeless romantic in me is still hoping and waiting. I don't really know if I'm in love right now and I don't exactly know to whom but all I know is that there's someone who is constantly in my mind and at the end of the day I just want to be with him, I am just a fool and coward for letting him go.
A few days before my 30th birthday and I'm starting to feel the blues... care to cheer me up?