Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to.
Though that doesn’t mean that
we've stopped loving them
or we've stopped to care.
Sometimes goodbye is
a painful way to say I love you...
When I met you, I never really thought that we could end up this way. You are just the bestfriend of my boyfriend, and you eventually became my bestfriend. You and I went through a lot, you saw me at my best and at my worst. If there’s anyone that I could say who knows me inside out that would be you. You know my tantrums, my mood swings and even my dominance and stubbornness. I could easily just pour my heart on you and just be myself. I remembered the time when my parents split up, you were there as I let the tears run dry. When I graduated from college, you were there to celebrate with me. When I was looking for my first job, you were there patiently waiting... As I look back, I find you in every major event in my life, like I always say you are my North Star, the only constant in my life. I can’t remember exactly the time that I first realize that I am falling in love with you, what I do remember was I try to hide my feelings, tried to suppress whatever love I’m feeling for you because I don’t want to ruin the special friendship that we have. But eventually, from friends to lovers, we were a picture of an ideal couple, a match made in heaven and when you asked me to spend the rest of our lives together, that was one moment that I will never forget. It sounds too good to be true, more like a dream and I thought it would stay that way. But the unknown villain came in the picture, Lupus... Now, my semi-charmed life was ruin and it has changed me in anyway possible. During those times that I was battling with my sickness, you never left my side even though I tried so hard to push you away, you were still there. Everyone said that I’m lucky, that I can never find anyone like you anymore. You told me, you were willing to wait no matter how long it takes, that you’ll gonna take care of me and I should have just let you do all that but I didn’t I decided to let you go. I wanted you to let me go, for your own sake. I just don’t want to drag you into the uncertainty of my illness and suffer with me. Call it self-pity or whatever I just did what I thought would be the best for us. Love was never the question, I may have fallen for somebody else but in my heart there’s only you. I’m glad that after a long while, you’ve decided to let me go and we just have to accept that as sad as it may seem, we were just never meant to be. I don’t know what the future hold, I’m not even sure what my heart really wants at this time but all I know is that you will always be my bestfriend, my North Star. I wish you well.
Labels: letting go, love, personal
i just feel am as romantic as you but you can express yourself in a nicer flow of words. :)
God bless you, ems.