An unexpected surprise...

This blog of mine has been in PR0 for such a long time and I've been neglecting this blog because personally, I am not that inspired to write anything about love and maybe I just don't like to deal with any love emotion at this point but there are things that I cannot say to anyone not even to my friends that I just feel the need to shout it out and that is what this blog is all about. I love this blog, this define my whole personality... a hopeless romantic who simply cannot let go of love itself.

After several months of hiatus, I am so surprised to find out that this blog ranks 3 in Google...



I am so delighted.

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My heart is broken once again… and the sad thing is I am the only one who knows about it. I cannot even tell anyone that I am hurting, I cannot let anyone know that I am in pain simply because no one knows that I am deeply in love with this man. Yes, I have a secret love… an unspoken feeling towards someone and I would rather die than to reveal to anyone that I am in love with him. I know I shouldn’t be feeling this, I know I shouldn’t even love him at all but what can I do, this foolish heart of mine just can’t be stopped. I honestly tried to avoid it, tried to ignore it, I even distanced myself from him but the further I try to stay away the more my feelings for him intensify. I’ve been in this road before, in fact I’ve been in this road so many times now but my stubborn heart just couldn’t learn. Love isn’t love until it is shared by two but I know in my heart that my love for him is enough for both of us. I did not expect us to be a couple, I did not even dream about us being together, although I wanted him to be THE ONE… my heart isn’t just ready to dream big, just to be close to him was more than enough for my happiness.

I had my share of little happiness, little cute moments together that maybe doesn’t mean a thing for him but means a lot for me. I thought that would be enough… Loving him in silence, I thought I’ll be alright with that but lately I am starting to realize that I shouldn’t be punishing myself in loving someone who can’t love me back. He may be the man of my dreams but clearly I am not the girl in his and I really believe that true love knows when it’s time to hold on and when it’s time to let go. Sad as it may seem but this is the time to let him go… maybe, just maybe this is just not the love for me just yet. Should I lose hope and turn my back from love? There’s a part of me that says, “Yes, I should ” that I should give up on love but I just know that I cannot… I am simply just a hopeless romantic and love will be on its way for me again very soon…

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It's the first day of June, how time really flies imagine we are now halfway of the year and I'm not sure if I should be sad or glad. June marks the start of school opening and although I am not a student anymore I am still excited to buy some school supplies and early this afternoon I saw some cool school furniture and I am also excited to start my volunteer work in teaching the Bible in public schools very soon.

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This is my mom and I, taken a few months back. Just like on my previous post she recently turned 60 and enjoying the benefits of being a senior citizen but I am blessed that my mom still looks young and she's healthy.

Yes, she already has a lot of gray hair and some of her wrinkles can no longer be concealed even on make-up and she may even try prototype 37c that can prevent wrinkles but what matters most is that she healthy and aging is just a natural process that everyone has to go through.

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My mom turned 60 last March and she is currently enjoying the benefits of being a senior citizen but although my mom still looks fabulous at 60, sometimes she says that aging really sucks and the transition is difficult as well. My mom is not trying to look young, she is proud of her looks at her age but still I caught her reading about human growth hormone a health supplement that can enhance the natural way of aging. Hmmm, I might as well search for it soon.

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I am thinking of venturing into a new business and I'm thinking since I love shopping online and I am mostly on the internet, it will be nice to have a shipping business... Most of my friends are into online shopping and already has an online store and one of our problems is shipping. I've been browsing some information on this and I found some great sites for industrial equipment that also has some shipping equipments. I need to learn more and find out if this business suits me well.

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I spent my midyear bonus in my mom's new glasses. She's been requesting to have her current eye glasses changed because she thinks it's been causing her headaches. I know how bad those headaches could be, I experienced that last year when I encountered some problems on my vision because of my prolonged steroids intake but I am thankful that I was able to find cheap prescription glasses that corrected my vision problems and now, I can see very clearly. It is nice to always find something that is helpful and something you can afford, right?

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I can't believe that this is my first entry in this blog after a very long time. Let me just say that maybe I've been too caught up with a lot of things that's been happening in my life and I've been avoiding certain love emotions... again... but I know that I cannot run from these feelings much longer, one way or another I have to let it out. How I wish our hearts can have a safety net just like in car insurance so that somehow when the time comes that it really hurts you can be assured that things could get better.

I should have known that love is such a complicated matter but one thing is for sure I never learn.

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