Tuesday, June 01, 2010

My heart is broken once again… and the sad thing is I am the only one who knows about it. I cannot even tell anyone that I am hurting, I cannot let anyone know that I am in pain simply because no one knows that I am deeply in love with this man. Yes, I have a secret love… an unspoken feeling towards someone and I would rather die than to reveal to anyone that I am in love with him. I know I shouldn’t be feeling this, I know I shouldn’t even love him at all but what can I do, this foolish heart of mine just can’t be stopped. I honestly tried to avoid it, tried to ignore it, I even distanced myself from him but the further I try to stay away the more my feelings for him intensify. I’ve been in this road before, in fact I’ve been in this road so many times now but my stubborn heart just couldn’t learn. Love isn’t love until it is shared by two but I know in my heart that my love for him is enough for both of us. I did not expect us to be a couple, I did not even dream about us being together, although I wanted him to be THE ONE… my heart isn’t just ready to dream big, just to be close to him was more than enough for my happiness.

I had my share of little happiness, little cute moments together that maybe doesn’t mean a thing for him but means a lot for me. I thought that would be enough… Loving him in silence, I thought I’ll be alright with that but lately I am starting to realize that I shouldn’t be punishing myself in loving someone who can’t love me back. He may be the man of my dreams but clearly I am not the girl in his and I really believe that true love knows when it’s time to hold on and when it’s time to let go. Sad as it may seem but this is the time to let him go… maybe, just maybe this is just not the love for me just yet. Should I lose hope and turn my back from love? There’s a part of me that says, “Yes, I should ” that I should give up on love but I just know that I cannot… I am simply just a hopeless romantic and love will be on its way for me again very soon…

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7 Comments:

At 3:54 AM, Blogger Sarah said........
I don't think your able to "turn your back on love" because you would have to distance yourself from them and, from your previous experience, that probably wont work well.. unless you give it a Long while...
 


At 5:26 AM, Blogger MiracleKelvina said........
Hi. I'm a new follower. Love it when you said that love isn't love until it is shared by two but you know your love is enough for the both of you. You'll be able to find someone too. When it's destined for you to have it. :)

You can follow me as well. :)
 


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At 8:13 AM, Blogger Dinobotxx said........
Wow, what a beautiful post! I know I don't know you well enough to give any pertinent advice (and though two years have passed, maybe you're in this situation again); but have you ever considered telling him how you feel? If you're friends with him, perhaps you should try and tell him how you feel. I definitely know how you feel and I know how much it hurts to be rejected... But you have to try! If you love someone new now - or if it's the same guy (I often like guys for a very long time) - maybe you should try and talk to them about how they'd feel about having a relationship with you. Or at least flirt with them - you never know what might happen! :)
Good luck, and I hope you find love soon!
 


At 12:58 PM, Anonymous Donna said........
This is just heartfelt. <3
 


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