Friday, November 30, 2007

The other day, I stayed at the hotel room with my friend from Canada. We have not seen each other in years and we really need to update ourselves with what’s going on with our lives. We spend the whole day laughing, reminiscing the good old days and it was really fun. I was truly impressed with the tv lifts she has in her room, with just a touch of a button a sleek plasma TV appears and disappears swiftly at the foot of her bed. We both agreed we’d love that for ourselves. It was a fine day to be with a good friend and it’s just sad that she has to leave right away but we both know that even distance can’t keep us from being close.

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2:33 PM | 0 comments

Let Me Be
by: Emmyrose

Each night I would go out and gaze in the sky
Wondering if you ever think of me the same way
Underneath the moonlight, I breathed a prayer
Wishing that your heart yearned to love me too

I love you, can’t you see?
I tried to deny it, to suppress it
I tried to ignore it
For I know this is all wrong, but I just couldn’t

This is love sneaks up on me
Hurting me… capturing my whole being
A certain emotion I can no longer hide
I have to let it out, I have to make my love known

Let me be a part of the life you wanted to live
Let me be the gift you wanted to give
Let me be the music you long to hear
Let me be the sound that brings you tears

Let me be the air you need to breathe
Let me be the light when you are underneath
Let me be the goal you have to finish
Let me be the hope inside your little wish

Let me be the teardrop each time you would cry
Let me be the truth suspended in a lie
Give me a chance to be with you
Don’t turn away from me, for I am not going anywhere

I’ll be here if ever you need me
I am here to love you
To be the one you’ve always wanted
All you have to do is open your heart

Let me be the rain that washed your aches away
Let me be the sun to shine in a brand new day
And let me be the love that you’ve always dreamed of
For you are the love kept inside my heart….

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12:55 PM | 1 comments

“How sweet it is to be loved by you” I’ve been hearing this song in my head over and over again and I just can’t stop smiling. Is it a wonder how love can turn your world around?

I have always been a hopeless romantic but after a series of broken heart and broken dreams, I became cynical about love and probably bitter about being romantic. For sometime, I tried to keep my distance towards love and have tried everything to stay away from it. I just feel that with everything that’s going on with my life, the last thing I need is to complicate it with love. But love truly moves in mysterious ways and you can’t hide from love forever because once it finds you, there’s nothing else you can do but surrender to it.

My friends and I were talking about getting back on your feet and surviving after a break up and I really don’t have a clever advice on it but somehow you’ll just get through it and learn to cope up, eventually. Love is something I can never really comprehend but all I know is that it makes you feel good about yourself and happy, it can make you do the unexpected like write a romantic note for the one you love or simply make you feel alive with just a bouquet of roses. Love is indeed mysterious and I really need to get in touch with my hopeless romantic nature again and start embracing love again, with the help of eHarmony
I will surely get romantic ideas to be able to experience the beauty of love once again.

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12:37 PM | 1 comments
Thursday, November 29, 2007

It's a rainy day once again but don't worry I am not gloomy at all. I am actually looking forward for a date tonight... yeah, you read it right, I am back in the dating game. My best friend after being so persuasive as she is fixed me up with her hubby's high school friend and tonight, I'll be meeting him for a date. I am a bit nervous, I've never done this in quite awhile and I have no idea on what's gonna happen. But what the heck, I worry too much...

I think something's going on here in Makati, they say there's another military stand off and soldiers and some civilians are marching along Ayala calling for GMA to step down (gudluck na lang sa inyo, kapit tuko 'yan kaya malamang hindi baba yan'). Well, I'm not sure really of what's going on but just to be safe I'll be having lunch here in the office and won't leave until my date arrives early tonight.

Have a wonderful rainy day and it's gonna be another long weekend for us here in the Philippines ^-^


12:19 PM | 0 comments

I enjoy shopping at especially on books. There are a lot of hard to find books some of them even rare that I can’t normally find in our local bookstore. For a book lover and collector like me, Amazon is really a haven and I just love it. I also would love to get some Amazon promotional codes & coupons so that I’ll be able to save on my purchase. Discount Amazon gift certificates are also a great present to give out this holiday season, this will give your loved ones or your special someone a chance to buy what they want and still spend less. Amazon is also a great place to shop for DvDs, magazines, sporting goods, groceries, toys, baby items and everything else… it almost have everything you need and you can even sell your items that you don’t have any use anymore. We all love discounts and great bargains, with almost everyone experiencing a financial drought it would really help a lot to save more on your shopping. You might think that it’s not practical to splurge on shopping for gifts this holiday season because money is quite tight but always put in mind that Christmas is a time for giving and it’s a time to share our blessings and show our love and appreciation to the ones who matters to us most. And maybe you can get a secret Amazon discounts to help you save more on your shopping.

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11:57 AM | 1 comments

I have been taking steroids for the past six years and it is the reason why I have gained so much weight. There was a time that I hate looking at myself in the mirror because I feel so ugly because of all those fat and I hate shopping for clothes because nothing seems to fit me. For a time, it really caused depression on my part and I even result into taking diet pills just to lose some weight. But later on I have learned to accept that beauty comes in all sizes and I don’t have to feel bad because I am fat, slowly I am learning to deal with it.

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11:39 AM | 1 comments

13 Inspired Quotes from Sex and the City

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep
him away. If he doesn't want
you, nothing can make him stay.

2. Stop making excuses for a man and his

3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind
about a man's character, leave
him alone.

4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save
you from heartache.

5. Stop trying to change yourself for a
relationship that's not meant to

6. Don't force an attraction.

7. Never live your life for a man before you
find what makes you truly

8. Don't settle.

9. Don't stay because you think "it will
get better." You'll be mad at
yourself a year later for staying when
things are not better.

10. Don't fall for the "I'm confused role".
Remove yourself from the
situation to let him figure things out (but
don't wait for him, move on).

11. If you think he is cheating, he probably
is. Confront him right away and if you feel he's
lying, let him go.

12. Never let a man define who you are.

13. You should never look for someone to
a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...
look for someone complementary...
not supplementary.

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10:23 AM | 7 comments

I was having a hard time getting up this morning, the cold weather makes me want to sleep more and just stay home. I love mornings like this and it reminds me even more that Christmas is fast approaching and it’s time to finish my gift list before it’s too jammed in the malls. Lately, I have found joy in shopping online, I think it’s a new hobby that I really find exciting but I also need to take extra precaution because I may end up paying more than I should, that is why it is important to use promo codes to save a little in my shopping. I really love shopping for books at Amazon and I saved a great deal using my Amazon coupons. I can find rare titles there that I can’t find in my local bookstore and I’m sure my brother would love his Adidas coupons that will give him fabulous discounts in his sports apparel.

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10:06 AM | 0 comments
Wednesday, November 28, 2007

The sun is brightly shining today and after a series of bad mood I am starting to feel good now. Well, I cannot say that I am happy now but I just have a feeling that today will be a better day.

I woke up early today and walk along with my dog, I don't do that often since I am not an early riser but I just feel I need a moment to greet the sunrise and pray. I badly need God's presence in my life right now and as I stopped at the playground, I took the chance to get on the swing and just sway. It is supposed to be a rainy day today but as I was looking up, I saw the sun just beneath these trees and I am glad that slowly, the storm is over.

Have a nice to all!


12:56 PM | 2 comments

I always consider it a blessing that I already finished college before I got sick, I just don’t know if I can be able to finish school when most of the time I was at the hospital and I was at a wheel chair for almost six months. It was during this time that I got hooked with the internet, since I have nowhere else to go and I don’t want to see my friends then, my PC became my only friend. At first, I was active with an online forum where I posted most of my love articles, poems, etc… but I eventually grew tired of it and chatting seems senseless to me already. It felt like I am wasting my time and I needed something worthwhile to do with my internet connection. And then a friend introduced me into an online university where I can enroll and finish my Masters Degree completely online. I did try it out and it was fun, after two years I finished my graduate studies and earned my Masteral Degree, it was an accomplishment on my part. I am thankful that education evolved in our time, you can now just sit back and earn a degree through the internet with all the online universities out there like the capella university where you can earn a degree completely online. Want to do something worthwhile with your time? Why not study online and use that education meaningfully.

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12:43 PM | 1 comments
Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Grab this from Yen, just have nothing to blog about ;)

1. At your next birthday celebration you can have any flavor, shape, size, and style of cake you want. What do you choose?
~I got a wonderful birthday cake the last time, anything will do :)

2. For friends and loved ones: do you buy a birthday cake or bake one for them?
~Buy, I can't bake.

3. Do you prefer sumptuous flavor or incredible decorations?

4. What interesting cake, frosting, and filling combination would you most love to try?
~Just about anything... just thinking about that makes me hungry..

5. Tell us about a school subject or hobby that is a “cake walk” for you.
~I don't really know...

This is what I get when nothing comes to my mind, this is so senseless!


10:26 PM | 0 comments

My best friend who is based in Canada is in town for a visit and she expresses her desire to invest here in the Philippines, she likes to venture into real estate and buy some land where she can eventually sell in a higher value in the future. I think it’s a good thing, my family invested on real estate too and now, we are reaping from it. She’s leaving in a few days and we have a schedule on a broker tomorrow for possible acquiring of properties.

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7:52 PM | 1 comments

I used to be an impulsive buyer but after a while I have learned to be an intelligent shopper. I am a shopaholic, it’s an addiction that I always find relaxing and enjoyable. I have set a goal, that if ever I earn through blogging I would buy myself a new laptop as a Christmas gift for myself. For weeks now, I was browsing to buy a new laptop and after thorough searching and haggling I found what I like, what I need and what I can afford and in just a matter of one week my new laptop will be delivered to me. I have reached my first goal and I am so happy.

Deciding to buy a laptop is tough, you must search for the ones that you really need and the specs do matter. You need to be wise too, spend only what you can afford and a cheap laptop does not mean you’ll suffer from the specs. Find something that offers a good price, discounts and a store that you can really save a lot. Just be a wise spender.

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5:58 PM | 1 comments

Did you feel the earthquake about lunch time today?

I was having lunch with my officemates at a mall when we felt the earth moved. We were kinda scared because we're on the top floor and we are in Glorietta, so we first thought there's another explosion that made the mall shake. We later realize it was an earthquake, still scary and we hurriedly finish our meal and head back to the office. I think we're still having paranoia at Glorietta, it's our favorite hang out ever since college and with the wood surrounding the ground zero, anyone who was there that day would remember how scary that explosion was. Anyway, it is once again a rainy day and I still feel gloomy. This sadness is getting a little old and even I are getting tired of it so I'm sorry if I'm not blog hopping or posting much, I don't think it safe for me to be around other people I might just explode.


4:55 PM | 1 comments

We are in the printing business and besides the election, Christmas is also our peak season. Most companies hire us to for their company's office paper with letterhead to be used for the upcoming year. Some of our clients also want a specialized calendar for giveaways and we are also printing a lot of invitations and one of the highest costs in our business is the ink, we use different kind of inks for ever specialized printer and sometimes it really costs too much. It’s a good thing that we found a Cartridge Finder for all our printing needs.

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4:51 PM | 1 comments
Sunday, November 25, 2007

I'm exhausted but before I call it a night and head to bed, I just can't help but rant about finding out that somebody is reposting my entries and that certain blog is using an RSS feed to fetch my entries and reposting them in their blog. I HATE THAT! I always try to keep my blog entries personal and even if I have three active blogs I rarely duplicate my own post. I always try to give my readers something new to read about and then I'll find out that somebody else is posting my entries as if it was their own, imagine even my own feelings are being posted on that blog! Annoying! Thanks to Technorati and I'm not really sure on what actions I'm going to make but I will definitely do something about this.


10:12 PM | 1 comments

I don't really need a quiz to know if I'm in love, because I am. But I love taking online quizzes just to give you an idea of some of the things you are not really aware of. It's fun and exciting, especially if your result turned out to be something you're not expecting. I'm not saying that these results are accurate and it will determine your whole personality but if you've been honest with your answers it is possible that you will get the suitable result for you.

There’s a new and exciting fun personality quizzes that I’m quite sure you will enjoy. Quiz Rocket is just a site to rave about, I just tried it myself and here goes my Love Test Result:

Take the Love Quiz at!
Make Your Own Quiz

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5:55 PM | 0 comments

Echoes Of Goodbye
By: Emmyrose

As I see the end of the line
I can hear the echo of your goodbye
Something tells me you're not coming back
And still, there I was waiting..

Hoping you'll change your mind
That somehow you might choose to stay
Although I knew you were really leaving
My heart refuses to let go

Let me love you one last time
Leave me with a wonderful memory
Look into my eyes and kiss me goodbye
Walk away and don't look back

I don't want you to see my cry
I love you so much that I am setting you free
And if one day destiny brings us back together
Then probably it was simply meant to be

But for now, I know that everything must come to an end
And even good things never really lasts...

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5:35 PM | 1 comments

Do you want this precious diamond? I most certainly want that. It has always been said that diamonds are every girl's best friend and who could resist this beautiful stone anyway. I know I got some commitment issues but of course as a hopeless romantic I have always dream of being engaged and being married someday by someone who could swept me off my feet, but that's just a little too far for me right now. I stumbled upon a great website that you can shop for such fine wedding rings and engagement rings, they're designs are truly amazing and it is something that could really blow you away. You might say I am just being materialistic but a diamond ring represents a timeless commitment to the one you love and I know it's not a gauge to measure your love but you will surely want your love of your life to be happy and something like this will absolutely make anyone joyful.

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5:09 PM | 1 comments

There's a song in my head that's been playing over and over again... I guess, this is the best way to describe what I'm feeling right now. And even if I can't really put into words what I really want to say, this song tells everything I'm feeling.

Don't give me a second chance
It'll be the same
You will be the consequence
And i will have the pain
You are something else
I have to survive
That is why I say with tears in my eyes
I wish I never opened up my heart
I didn't mean to love you, baby
I wish I never let it get this far
I didn't mean to love you baby
If I could have a single wish
I'd turn back time

I didn't mean to make you mine
Don't look at me like I'm mad
I though you would know
I was getting way too sad
It was gonna show
There was no way I could hide
I could hide the truth
so i look the risk
And fell for you
I didn't mean to get so lonely
I didn't mean to make you need me
I didn't mean to love you like I do
Look at what we've put us through
I didn't mean to make you
I didn't mean to make you
I didn't mean to make you mine

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12:06 AM | 0 comments
Saturday, November 24, 2007

I enjoy watching live concerts, basketball games, plays, etc but what annoys me the most is the hassle in getting yourself a ticket. And if you want to book early, you just dial a hotline but it is not yet a guarantee that you will get good seats. Well, it’s a good thing that you can now enjoy your favorite game, concerts of your favorite artist and never miss an event by getting Wicked tickets that can provide you tickets to sold out event, how sweet is that…

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11:58 PM | 1 comments
My brother and I have our eyes set of having a home theater very soon and since we both enjoy watching movies, we really want to have that set up in our own home. We’re even thinking of getting a leather home theater seating just to get that same feeling and experience you get when you are inside a cinema. I know it’s quite expensive and it’ll be a while before we can save for it but very soon, we are gonna have this.

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11:41 PM | 0 comments

9 ½ YEARS BEHIND THE GREEN DOOR… a compelling and interesting true story written by Simone Corday. A memoir about her porn king lover Artie Mitchell, pornographer Hunter S. Thompson and the killing that stunned San Francisco. It was set in the Eighties just before the beginning of AIDS, they have been a part of the behind the scenes at the Mitchell Brothers’ O’ Farrell Theater, which was declared by Thompson “the Carnegie Hall of public sex in America.” The theater and its steamy live shows became a popular venue for celebrities in entertainment, sports and even for politicians and journalist. They found interest by the beautiful strippers and the backroom hospitality of the outrageous porn king hosts, Artie and Jim Mitchell who directed the groundbreaking porn film Behind the Green Door.
It is a book that will shed light of what really goes on behind the closed green door, the O’Farrell Theater was a wild place, seemingly emphasizing on sex and the writer wrote some of her wild experiences that she described realistically with a hope that her readers will be able to focus on the more serious parts of this story and understand her perspective. This book was taken from her journal that she kept since she started dancing at the theater, the complex love affair she shared with the porn king, Artie and until his death. It is her side of the story, the words of her soul, read the free chapters and find yourself mesmerized by this gripping story.

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10:52 PM | 1 comments

If you are my regular reader and you have been following my blogs, you will probably notice that I am not blogging much this week, in fact I have missed all my weekly memes in all of my blogs. Don’t worry I am not sick but I am currently experiencing a very foul mood and I really have nothing good to write about. I guess, I am still affected with what happened last Saturday when I had an encounter with the one I love. I don’t know but I am really praying for better days to come my way.

I am sorry for not hopping in your blogs and for not doing some tags, I’ll just come by soon… in the meantime, enjoy the rest of the weekend!


10:08 PM | 1 comments

It has been said that the Philippines has a lot of hidden treasures. One of which is the famous Yamashita treasure, a Japanese general who was believed to have buried tons of gold in several areas in the Philippines during the World War II. Well, everything was hearsay, although there were rumors that Ferdinand Marcos (our former president) already took those gold bullion and this is the one of the source of the enormous wealth that the former president’s family is enjoying right now. Gold is truly a unique and valuable investment and unlike money it does not loses its value and it is universally accepted. Do you believe that Yamashita really left a lot of gold treasures here in the Philippine? Nah ~ Wherever it is I hope I can find one ^-^

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9:38 PM | 1 comments
Thursday, November 22, 2007

Sometimes I wish I had never met you.
Because then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there.
~ Good Will Hunting

Is it true that we never really say goodbye to someone we love, because no matter how hard we try, that love will always find its way back to us?

Sometimes I wish my heart didn't love you the way it does.

But when I remember the joy I once felt when you were still in my arms, I think, even the pain and the sorrow were all worth it. I don't think life would have been the same if I didn't love you, I just can't imagine me not loving you..


10:26 AM | 1 comments

Are you looking for billet grilles for your car? Check out they have a wide selection of custom billet grilles for most cars, trucks and SUV’s. Its new chrome wire mesh line brags a new concept in custom grille industry and they are specifically designed as an upgrade for the vehicles with plain factory grilles. They are not just for style, it is for your own precision driving and it’s always advisable to have the best for your car.

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10:12 AM | 0 comments
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
An overdue tag from Marie:

I started blogging in 2004, at first I was just merely posting my angst towards my Lupus illness and at that time my anger towards the people from church who betrayed me. I just want to release everything that I cannot truly tell to anyone. As years passed by, I noticed that most of my friends are monetizing their blogs. I don't want to. I just think that I will lose the purpose of my blog when I enter into pro-blogging, but when my friends started to blog about their earnings I got curious and I decided to give it a try. Now, I am already earning a lot especially with my domain blog (Dancing With Butterflies) where I'm getting lot of people who want to advertise on it, some of it I had to decline because it doesn't fit my theme. In just a month I have earned a lot to purchase some stuff from eBay and next month, I will be purchasing this solely from my blog earnings....
It also helps a lot with my daily expense and I am starting to enjoy it now, although sometimes I am receiving so much task assignments that I can't cope up.

*Tag Starts Here*

Please share the reason/s why you decided to do ads/paid posts. State how your earning is helping you in any way.
Pass it to 2 bloggers/publishers only.
After my name, list ALL your monetized blogs. If you have more than one blog, add the next blogs by using numbers only (such as 1, 2, 3, see my example) instead of long links.
Use the button but please no direct linking.
I would really appreciate it if you could drop me a line should you decide to entertain this tag. I would like to pay you a visit and add you on my list.

Emmyrose, 1, 2 ...

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10:55 PM | 0 comments

Everything’s digital these days and you’ll be amazed by how technology keep on improving itself. Do you remember when you need to save your files on a diskette? How about developing your pictures from a film roll? Well, that’s all in the past now. We are depended on the mini flash drives now to save our files and who needs a film roll when you have a micro sd that can save up to a thousand photograph. I guess, technology really works well at least for me.

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10:42 PM | 0 comments

Ever since I got sick I usually work from home and I’m not saying I like it but I have learned to live with it. One thing I desire is to have this kind of office furniture, I just find it so elegant and I’m quite sure that I can improve on my work with this kind of atmosphere. Who could resist this beautiful home office anyway? Certainly not me.

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10:08 PM | 0 comments
An overdue tag

THE RULES - List of 8

* write 8 facts about yourself.
* in the 8 facts, you share 8 things that your readers don’t know about you. at the end, you tag as much other bloggers to keep the fun going. each blogger must post these rules first.
* each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
* at the end of the post, a blogger needs to choose as much people to get tagged and list their names.
* don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

I can't really think of something that I have not shared yet about myself but here it goes..

My List of 8

1. I'm not a domesticated person. I don't do laundry and anything associated with clothes, I just buy and wear them.

2. I've got a lot of cosmetic items that I don't use, I don't know how to put make-up.

3. I'm fascinated with perfumes. I got a wide collection of it but I only use D&G Light Blue, Clinique Happy and Cool Water.

4. I'm a spoiler with my nieces and nephews, I just love kids so much.

5. I've had four serious relationships but I broke my heart more than that.

6. I regularly go to spa for relaxation.

7. I'm a great cook and that is one household chore that I love to do.

8. I had a sister who suffered from cerebral palsy and she died when I was fifteen.

I'm not really sure if you have done this tag already, so you are all free to snag this one out, just breaking the rules a bit.

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9:44 PM | 0 comments

I love sports, well at least I used to. I was a tennis player and I also played volleyball back in high school. When I was in college, our university was just around a golf course and my friends and I used to watch them play. We even saw some celebrities playing golf and I really didn’t know what the game was all about. I find it rather boring since you don’t really move a lot. The equipments too are bulky and heavy, but I do love the outfit and the golf shoes. Well, since its not a physical sports I can probably try it but then again I am not allowed to be exposed in the sun… so I guess, I’ll just stick with indoor badminton and arcade basketball

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9:39 PM | 0 comments

I am currently using four credit cards. I find it really helpful and beneficial on my part since I don’t want to carry cash all the time. I also like the perks or the rewards that I’m getting using my credit cards. What I like most about my credit card is the hassle-free payment of my bills so that I won’t have to wait in line. I also take advantage of maximizing the payment method that I can choose so that I can still keep track of my expenses. I also like credit card consolidation so that I can use two cards at the same time to purchase something. I think it’s quite clear that I’m living with plastics.

Have you heard about Mint Credit Cards? If you’re in UK this is truly a must-have for you. Imagine all the benefits you can avail when you acquire a Mint Credit Card now… Up to £7,500 credit limit and it is accepted worldwide, wherever you see the MasterCard logo, no annual fee and you get a free additional card for your loved-one. You can safely transact and monitor your account online and even get your statements through email or by receiving text messages, definitely secured so that you won’t have to worry about online fraud. Apply online now and enjoy limited 0% rewards on your purchases, balance transfers and receive bonus.

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9:09 PM | 0 comments
Monday, November 19, 2007
I had an emotional weekend but enough of that... I want to start the week with a smile and a beautiful snapshot of a restaurant at a rooftop of one of the top hotel in Manila. I had lunch there yesterday with a friend I have not seen in awhile. It was a calming sight and a peaceful place to catch up with an old friend.

As promised, this is now the rose I've posted a week ago... it's full bloom and very lovely.

Have a great week everyone!

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1:05 AM | 12 comments

When I was diagnosed with Lupus and nearly died two years ago, I realized the importance of having a life insurance. I don’t want to be morbid or anything but I just want to be assured that just in case God decided to take my life already, I won’t be a burden to my family. I want everything to be smooth sailing and to be organized till the day I die. That is why I got myself an insurance policy, and what a smooth deal it was a life insurance no medical and it was processed so easily that it wasn’t a hassle for me at all.

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12:56 AM | 0 comments
Sunday, November 18, 2007

One day I will be going to Paris and see not only the Eiffel Tower but everything that this romantic place has to offer. My college friends and I are already saving for this much-awaited trip and we are already starting to make plans. We all want to experience a Paris bed and breakfast accommodation and feel how wonderful it is to be a pampered traveler. I’m sure a B&B Paris experience will be such a delight.

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11:28 PM | 2 comments

One of the famous line from Jerry Maguirre and that is exactly what I am feeling tonight. My heart is suffering from emotional turmoil again. I was caught off guard and my protective shield became powerless from the four letter word called L-O-V-E...

Tonight was supposed to be a night of hanging out with old friends and enjoying a classical music from a choir concert sponsored by our church. I didn't really wanna go, I didn't plan to but my friends were so persistent. I wasn't expecting to see "him" again, I knew that this kind of show bores him so I anticipated that I won't be seeing him there, but fate has something different in store for us. The moment I stepped on the concert venue, he was there at the lobby, smiling at me almost expecting that I am gonna be there. I smiled back and immediately went inside to find my seat. I was telling myself, just be cool about it.. pretend he's not there and just enjoy the show. A few minutes later the empty seat next to me was occupied by the very same man who occupies my heart and my mind, and who was smiling at me at the entrance. He was as surprised as I was and all we could say was "hello" that was the first word we spoke to each other after we parted ways nearly six months ago. I was caught off guard, suddenly I just wanted to go home.

I don't know if I should leave or what, but I could not sit next to him for the next two hours. I just don't think I can last that long pretending that his presence does not affect me. I tried to look away and concentrate on the powerful voices that surrounds the auditorium but my heart is beating so fast, I am suddenly grasping for air. My hands were shaking and blame it on the air-conditioning but I am so cold. He asked if "I'm alright", I told him "I'm fine..." He said that he's not and he misses me. At that moment I just want to break down and cry, but I just looked at him. There are no words that can explain how much I love him, that it hurts to know that he feels the same way but we cannot be together. It is just complicated!

That was I think one of the longest two hours that I had in my life and when the show was over, I hurriedly went outside since I know most of the people who watched I let myself be surrounded by them so that I won't have to bump with him again. As my friends and I left the auditorium, I can't help but look back to just catch a last glimpse of him and I saw him watching me walk away... While having coffee everyone was in high spirits and I just want to go home, and it was like a curse or something but there he is again, with his friends and since we all know each other and ours was a secret affair that nobody knows we had to pretend that we're cool about each other. Suddenly, it was like old times. I was awfully quiet all night, and everyone thought I am probably getting sick again but I just told them that I am tired and I need to take off. Suddenly, he offered to give me a ride home and how can I say no in front of everybody... The moments in that car was unbearable, something that I cannot write about just yet but one thing is for sure, love will always find a way and if it's meant to be, it will be. But this is just not the right time for both of us, there are certain things that needs to be taken care of first and maybe someday, we can be together but today is not that day.

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2:02 AM | 4 comments

Since I’m already using credit cards I don’t really feel the need of having a checking account. My mom keeps a checking account for our business and it is a necessity if you got your own business and it also a safe way of paying your partners, since all transactions will be recorded in the bank. If you want your very own checking accounts it is so easy, just sign up for to help you get started.

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1:08 AM | 0 comments

They say that a picture can paint a thousand words and a beautiful picture can be a defining moment in one’s life. I love taking pictures and since most of my friends tell me that I am photogenic, I liked to be photographed as well. I like to take pictures of just about anything and since I have no professional training at all, I just aim, shoot and click and I am quite fortunate that I was able to take some good pictures as well.

My younger brother on the other hand is the official photographer in our family, for as long as I could remember he was always has this certain angle to shoot and his snapshots are really good. He is in fact a photographer in his school’s official newspaper. His work was once used as a photography editorial press photo for a school campaign and it was really awesome. Just like Marco Secchi a professional photographer and currently lives in London and Edinburgh, works all around the British Isles, who is such a wonderful and awesome photographer.

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12:32 AM | 0 comments

It's a rainy night and I was hoping that my happiness from yesterday will be enough to sustain me until today but unfortunately it didn't. I actually don't know what I truly feel, I think I am confused.. I am sad but I am also happy. Is that even possible or I might just be losing my mind now? All I know is that my fragile heart is under severe turmoil and I need to burst out everything that I am feeling right now. I am so glad that my Dancing With Butterflies blog has an option to keep a certain post private, I'm sorry but I need that entry for my eyes alone but I really need to put it down in my blog or else I'll be going insane any minute now. It looks like a very long night ahead...


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Saturday, November 17, 2007

I depend on plastics, I mean I often use my credit cards to make a purchase. Well, I love the point rewards I actually got my coffee maker using that reward points and my trip to Bohol last year was from my Miles Reward. I also like the rebates and it allows me to pay on my own terms. I am currently using four credit cards and a cyber debit card that I use for my online purchases. There are just so many credit cards out there and how can you choose the Best Cash Back Credit Cards for you. The one that is just right for your budget. helps you compare and choose the best credit suited for your personal needs. Visit them now.

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11:58 PM | 0 comments

Don't worry you're not in the wrong blog! This is actually true after sometime I can say that I am a happy girl, at least for today...

I am glad that after being sleepless for almost four days, finally I was able to sleep peacefully last night. I experienced extreme mood swings the last couple of days and I have been emotionally unstable, nah I'm not going insane but the sight of the one I love last Sunday brought back so many unwanted feelings that made me uneasy. It's really amazing how can love makes you feel all those raging emotions that you don't even know what it is... okay, I'm mumbling now I just don't want to think of him right now. I had such a wonderful time with my friends tonight and even the traffic on the way home didn't irritate me. I am looking forward for a beautiful weekend, I've got a lot of activities scheduled and I might be seeing him again later tonight, so I got to prepare my heart again for another emotional turmoil. Anyway, I hope my happiness will extend over the weekend...


12:33 AM | 3 comments

Last summer during my vacation to Baguio, the only thing I regret not doing was to light up the fire place. Since it was summer, the temperature was warm and there was no need for any fire. When I visited a friend who lives there, I noticed that the pension house is using an old fire place that uses log jams to start out the fire, I just thought it would be cool to have fire glass instead so that you wont be having a hard time starting the fire, and its cool designs will really make the room look cozy and warm.

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12:28 AM | 1 comments
Friday, November 16, 2007

Is it important to test your business performance management? It is essential to every business simply because it ensures your accuracy, reliability and consistency regarding your planning, consolidation and allocation process. You need a process manager that can effectively manage your entire performance in just a single application. This will help you gain full control and further optimize your business, so that you can have better workflow. Try Prophix business process manager and see how it changes your business.

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11:58 AM | 0 comments
Thursday, November 15, 2007

13 Marriage Jokes

1. Marriage is not a word. It's a sentence... (a life sentence).

2. Marriage is an institution in which a man loses his Bachelor's Degree and the woman gets her masters.

3. Marriage is a three ring circus: engagement ring, wedding ring and suffering.

4. Married life is full of excitement and frustration: In the first of marriage, the man speaks and the woman listens. In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens.In the third year, they both speak and the NEIGHBORS listen.

5. Getting married is very much like going to a restaurant with friends. You order what you want, and when you see what the other person has, you wish you had ordered that instead.

6. Son: "How much does it cost to get married, Dad?"
Father: "I don't know son, I'm still paying for it."

7. Love is one long sweet dream, and marriage is the alarm clock.

8. They say that when a man holds a woman's hand before marriage, it is love, after is self defense.

9. When a newly married man looks happy, we know why. But, when a 10-year married man looks happy, we wonder why.

10. After marriage, husband and wife become two sides of a coin. They just can't face each other, but still they stay together.

11. Before marriage, a man 'yearns' for the woman he loves. After the marriage, the "Y" becomes silent.

12. It's not true that married men live longer than single men, it only seems longer.

13. When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure for one thing...either the car is new or the wife is.

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4:49 PM | 10 comments

Before I got struck with Lupus, I used to have a lot of physical activities. I regularly play badminton and mountain climbing. I also do a regular jogging around our subdivision in the morning. But when I had Lupus, I was not allowed to do any of these things because my steroid medications made my bones brittle and any physical strain would cause it to break. It was a good thing that after my 2nd cycle of chemo therapy last year, I was already allowed to play badminton and alternate my jogging using the treadmill. Well, its not as good as running but I rather have that to at least loose some excess weight due to my steroid medications.

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12:20 PM | 0 comments
Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Why is it always hard to forget someone we love maybe because deep within us that's the last thing we would ever want to do. It's easy to say it's all over but its always difficult to let go of someone so precious to us. But reality bites, there are certain people that are truly not meant to stay with us forever. When someone becomes a part of us, that person takes a piece of our heart and when the time comes that he has to go, he leaves a void within us that is never easy to fill. I guess, that's the reason why it always brings us great pain every time we put an end to a relationship. I once read that we cannot finish a book without closing its chapters, if you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages of life. I know its easier said than done and letting go of someone is such a sad event but life is like a game, sometimes we just missed the target and we lose, and yes it does hurt but that doesn't mean we have to give up. We just need the strength to go on.

After a several heartbreaks, I have learned that if its not meant to be then we just have to accept it and let go of those could've beens. We should not let heartaches imprisoned us from the past and we must keep our hopes up that one day love will still find its way in us. Life doesn't end where our heartaches begin, it only ends when we give up on ourselves and let fear hinder us from falling in love again.

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3:54 PM | 5 comments

In a tropical country like the Philippines, the heat is sometimes unbearable. For a Lupus patient like me, the sun is one of our worst enemies because too much exposure from it can lead into a flare. I usually just stay indoor and lock myself in my air-conditioned room but that is not always the case. I also need to go to work and have you tried driving your car in the middle of the day and the heat is just too much! Even the air condition just can’t do the trick in cooling down your car, it’s a good thing I have a car fan that improved the ventilation inside my car to help blows out the hot air from a parked car. Say goodbye to sweaty afternoons and stay cool.

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3:45 PM | 0 comments

A few of my cousins got hooked on abusive substance and their addiction lead to the destruction of their lives. Alcoholism and drug addiction are serious problems that needs to be solved. This problem doesn’t limit the person inflicted with the addiction but also the people surrounding him/her. Addiction ruin lives and it is difficult to see someone we love suffer from addiction and even though we try our best to help him/her, they badly need a professional help that only drug rehabs can provide. Addiction is a disease that can be treated. Help someone overcome addiction and bring them back to life.

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3:05 PM | 0 comments

I am raving all of my post at PPP are automatically approved and I have no idea why, I just keep on receiving this email as soon as I posted my task assignment.
Congratulations!! Your PayPerPost post, Protect Your Home, has been automatically approved based on your high quality performance as a PPP Postie!

Congrats again on being an outstanding PPP Postie!! And watch for more auto approvals!!

Thank you,
The PayPerPost Team

This is really uplifting for me and everyday, I am getting funds at Paypal. It's really exciting and maybe in just a month I can already buy that new laptop that I've been saving for, purely from my pro-blogging money. I simply love it! It started when I clicked this at one of my blogger friends blog and decided to sign up. If you're not yet into pro-blogging, why don't you give it a try, you got nothing to lose anyway, just more to gain. C'mon give it a try!


10:25 AM | 4 comments
I received this very heartwarming award from Yen this is very sweet and kind of you sis and like I said I'm giving it back to you...

I do appreciate everyone who loves my blog and who always took time to comment on my entries. I sincerely wanna thank all of my blogger friends and I'm passing it on to everyone in my blogroll. I just want you all to know that I consider you my friends and I appreciate any kind gestures you had given me. Again, thank you all for being my friends.


10:15 AM | 0 comments

I got an email from a high school friend who is now residing and working in London. She’s a nurse and she’s been in London for almost four years now. I’m not surprised when she told me the news that she’s getting married to her long-time boyfriend who also works as a nurse in UK. She told me that the wedding will be in June and I’ll be one of her bridesmaid. Okay, another bridesmaid duty! I am happy for her and I can’t wait to see her again.

She told me that it will be nice for me to look for jobs in London because the climate there will be perfect from my Lupus illness and it’s no wonder that I’ll be earning more if I’ll be working in London. Well, as much as I want to I don’t think I can. I’m sure there’s a lot of London jobs that I could be interested to but I don’t think my health conditions will allow me to settle there.

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10:04 AM | 0 comments

My first car was a Honda Civic, I had it in college as a gift from my grandparents on my 18th birthday. My parents were against it, they just don’t like the idea of me driving and they just don’t think I’m responsible enough to be on the road on my own. But since they didn’t allow me live in a dorm and it was a long travel from our house to my school I told them that I’ll be safer in driving my own car than riding in a public transportation and so after a lot of persuasion they gave in.

It was a 2nd second hand but I loved it so much, I even got a name for her. I had a lot of emotional attachment at that car, I remembered driving to Tagaytay on my own when I had my first broken heart and this is where I cried my heart out. I was devastated when it was time to let him go, it was getting old and my cousins said that it will be practical for us to buy a new car. I didn’t want to but I knew they were right. So we look for new models of Honda Cars and check out Honda Cars Prices and after choosing what I want, I got a Honda Car Quotes so that I can determine if I can afford the car already. I still miss my old car, but I’m quite happy with Vince, my new Honda Car.

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9:41 AM | 1 comments
Liza got me tagged to list Top Five Annoying Things for me, here it goes:

1. Waiting in line ~ this is what I hate the most, I am a very impatient person and I really don't want to be waiting in a long line in groceries, atm's, etc. Especially when some annoying person is causing the delay of the line to flow.

2. TRAFFIC ~ if you live anywhere near Manila, the traffic is just unbearable. Especially in where I work (Makati) a 10min walk could take up to an hour drive, imagine that!

3. Judgmental people ~ those people who will just judge you base on what they can see and not really look within the person.

4. People who litters in malls and noisy people inside a coffee shop or a bookstore. I know its a public place but I find bookstores a place where you read, just like the libraries and if you could just want to chat with your friends go where you won't be a distraction to anyone who just wants to be alone.

5. User-friendly people ~ those people who are just nice to you because of your connections and the ones who just needs a favor from you and once they got what they want, they suddenly disappear from your life.

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9:06 AM | 3 comments

A few years ago, back at our old house we encountered a huge problem regarding termites. It’s terribly annoying to have termite nest in your home, imagine all the destruction it will cost you. The termites infested our attic and cabinet drawers, they even destroyed my mom’s encyclopedia set. The only thing left to do is to terminate them. We called up an expert in killing termites and in just a few weeks, we got our home back and the termites vanished for good. We all want to have nice homes, right? And we shouldn’t just be concern on the exterior of our house, we should also take care of what’s inside and do everything that we can to protect it, so that we could always have a good night sleep in our home.

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8:50 AM | 0 comments
Monday, November 12, 2007

Take a peek at our garden

I am waiting for this rose to bloom, I'll probably post about it next WS.

I had a laid back weekend with my family, after the festivities of the past weeks we all needed to rest. I also took time to cook last Saturday, my brother was raving about how good my kare-kare was (see post here) and the next day, my mom was attending to our garden well, I don't really have a green thumb so I was not a big help to her. I like looking at our garden, it relaxes me and just watching the flowers bloom gives me joy. Simple happiness like that cannot be bought and I am blessed that I have a lot of those. How's your weekend?

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4:57 PM | 12 comments
Sunday, November 11, 2007

I just got home from church today and I saw someone that I've been wanting to see and at the same time I was a bit scared to see. Scared.. that all my efforts of forgetting him in the past months will all go to waste just by the sight of him. I miss him terribly and this morning after six months of not seeing him, I saw the love of my life, the one person that I've been wanting to be with. There were no words that were spoken between us, just a nod that says it all. All along I thought I am over him, that I have finally let him go but it took just one glance to make my heart beat faster than it should. This is the reality that I have been keeping to myself, the reality that scares me the most, the reality that I still love him.

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1:41 PM | 5 comments

For a shopaholic like me, I tend to find numerous stuff online that I can have a good use. Besides my books purchases, I also like browsing for shoes, bags, perfumes and gadgets but lately I found out about, an online shopping boutique that is totally different. Here at you can browse for the latest style in fashion today and get some expert advice on how to find the best clothes for you by speaking through their online stylist that will surely be a big help for you. You can make purchases online, they accept all major credit cards and shipping is free when you are in the US. Their site is also well-guarded that’s why you can be assured of your online security when purchasing.

I used to work in a fashion magazine and although I’m a true blue fashionista I like to dress up in style. The most difficult to find is a great pair of jeans that fits perfectly, it seems like an elusive dream finding the best jeans for me but thank heavens for seven for all mankind where they have the best cut for jeans, suited just for you. Or maybe you’re a nudie, I mean you’re into nudie jeans a perfect slim fit for your man. Why don’t you check out and have a different online boutique experience you will never forget.

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1:12 PM | 0 comments

Do you have any idea on how an online gaming business works? It’s the in thing in the internet these days and I know a lot of people who are hooked into playing. It’s exciting and fun. Although online gaming sites are now all over the net, uVme has a phenomenal success that is now making it one of the most emerging businesses in the online entertainment market. It’s secret? Combining the power of three magnificent forces: online games, social networking with instant live communication and social marketing. This is the reason for uVme’s success. It is fast-moving and simply unique. Even though this company is relatively new, it already has a solid foundation, with an establish support system, marketing team and technical services team. This team worked for over two years, to create how uVme is today. The difference of this company against other globally successful company is that the very nature of the business means that if it succeed, everyone else involve will also benefit from the success based on their individual efforts. Surely a more exciting news for online gaming business.

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1:05 PM | 0 comments
Saturday, November 10, 2007

I had a nice day.

Yesterday, I've been ranting about how I was not able to sleep for a couple of days and I have been really stressed out. But last night, I was able to have a good night sleep and today, I tried to stay away from my PC the whole day and cooked lunch for my family...

Want to have Kare-Kare?

My brother loved this so much and he complimented on my cooking. Later in the afternoon, I attended one of my godchildren first birthday. It was fun seeing some old friends and I think I have lost my voice for singing my heart out with my cousin's new magic sing. And tonight, as I was checking my email I got a lot of OPP's approved and more funds at PayPal. I have received an email too from PPP that my post has been auto-approved because of my high quality performance as a PPP postie and they even congratulated me for being an outstanding PPP postie. I feel happy and all my hard work are starting to pay off. Good evening everyone!

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11:25 PM | 0 comments
Can your garage flooring define the man in you?

If we put a lot of care to our cars we should also give its home a nice look. It doesn’t matter if you got an old, all worn out garage floor… maybe you still got that old concrete like ours  has tiles available to cover it all up and give your garage flooring a new look that you desire. They also sell stuff to help you protect your newer concrete floor. If a car defines what kind of man you are let your garage tell you more about yourself.

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11:09 PM | 0 comments
Friday, November 09, 2007

"The magic of first love is our ignorance that it can never end." - Benjamin Disraeli

Do you still remember your first love?

One could fall in love many times during the course of a lifetime, but the first rush of love always holds a special place in our hearts. I was sixteen when I first fell in love, it was sweet while it lasted. It felt like a very long time ago but what's odd about is that I still can vividly remember almost everything about that special feeling. It is the kind of feeling that I have been waiting for to happen again, but I guess that's what makes first love special it's the kind of feeling that will never come again. I do remember my first love, it took me years to finally let him go but I am glad that I was able to forget him. Just like the song "I remember the boy, but I don't remember the feeling anymore..."

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5:42 PM | 2 comments

Have you tried your luck in casinos? I did, and it was a lot of fun especially when you’re winning. When my cousins from the US take a vacation here we often go casinos in Manila and Tagaytay, it’s a bit addicting so you better watch out. My cousin said that he’s into online gambling as well and he has been playing in online casinos and one of his favorite game are slots, roulette and online poker. He said it doesn’t differ a lot from a real casino and for someone like him, he’s too busy to even go to a real one that’s why he is thankful that he was able to experience the fun in the internet. There’s a lot of precaution though when playing because he doesn’t want to be victimized by online theft, this is the reason why he consults with an online casino review site that gives him an idea on where he should bet on. It’s one thing to enjoy without all the hassle and worry.

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5:31 PM | 0 comments

I was a bit hesitant to make money online, I didn’t really believe that you could actually earn from blogging but I was wrong. Thanks to some blogger friends who encouraged me to go pro-blogging and now I am starting to earn money just by blogging and not to mention I am really enjoying it. There are a lot of sites out there that gives opportunity to earn through blogging and one of them is bloggerwave, why not check it out.. it might just work for you.

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1:15 PM | 0 comments

What is your best personality trait?

Your best personality trait is your optimism!!You are always looking on the bright side, even when things are looking down.Your true element is light.
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I think this quiz tells a lot about myself. Even when bad things happen to me I still try to look for the bright side and I always tell myself that everything has a reason, a purpose for everything and I may not like what's happening in my life right now but knowing that God has in complete control, I can relax and stop worrying. Whenever I'm faced in a difficult situation, I always remember a line from one of my favorite movie ("My Bestfriend's Wedding")

These too shall pass...

Be positive, never miss a chance to be happy simply because you're so caught up in being lonely.


12:15 PM | 0 comments

What are you looking for in refrigerators? Are you in particular with style or maybe its design? Or maybe you just want something affordable that fits right in your budget? But there are many factors that you should consider when buying a new refrigerator for your household, with the impending energy crisis because of the higher cost of fuel, we must really look for refrigerator that doesn’t just look good but it has to be in good quality, something that can keep your food and beverages cold in a sufficient temperature. You need something economical and at the same time durable, so that you won’t waste your money on refrigerators that will just break down in a couple of years and you’ll see your money goes down the drain. It’s important to look for quality and that is where Maytag Refrigerators are all about. Check them out now and see for yourself.

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11:56 AM | 0 comments
Thursday, November 08, 2007


1 . Money isn't made out of paper, it's made out of cotton.

2. A raisin dropped in a glass of fresh champagne will bounce up and down continuously from the bottom of the glass to the top.

3. The dot over the letter i is called a "tittle".

4. 40% of McDonald's profits come from the sales of Happy Meals.

5. 315 entries in Webster's 1996 Dictionary were misspelled.

6. On average, 12 newborns will be given to the wrong parents, daily.

7. Warren Beatty and Shirley MacLaine are brother and sister.

8. Chocolate affects a dog's heart and nervous system; a few ounces will kill a small sized dog.

9. Donald Duck comics were banned from Finland because he doesn't wear pants.

10. Most lipstick contains fish scales (eeww).

11. Ketchup was sold in the 1830's as medicine.

12. There are no clocks in Las Vegas gambling casinos.

13. Leonardo Da Vinci could write with one hand and draw with the other at the same time; hence, multi-tasking was invented.

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5:29 PM | 17 comments

Today at lunch with my college friends they have been talking about a free dating site that they recently joined. They have been raving about it and encouraging me to sign up as well so that I may be able to find someone to flirt to. Yeah right, as if I would do that! Am I really ready for dating again? Not to mention its online dating, I find it tempting yet very risky as well. But they say I had nothing to lose. At, you can just search and meet someone you have common interest with, or you can simply create your personal profile to let others find you. You can browse along the gallery and browse photos or upload one of your own. You can send messages to people and probably flirt a little via instant messaging or their free chat rooms, you can even create your very one chat room and invite people to join in. Who knows you might just find your match! It is widely available worldwide and it’s totally FREE, absolutely no hidden strings attached.

The dilemma of being single, it’s annoying sometimes. It’s not really in my personality to engage myself with this kind of dating scene and even though it’s popular doesn’t mean I have to be one of them. But to my friends who just want to give it a shot, I don’t really find any reasons not to. As they say, love can sometimes be found in all the weird places and that includes the whole wide web.

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4:38 PM | 2 comments

I grew up with my grandparents and I love them dearly. One of the things that I like about the Filipino tradition is how much we value and care for our elderly. We tried our best to provide love and care for our parents or even grandparents. We give them our time, manage their health and everything they need just like how they took care of us. It is just sad that sometimes we take for granted that they are old and we often just neglect them. I guess, if you are just gonna desert them we might as well consider sending them to a care home where they can be well taken care of. A home that can provide them a shelter, where they can interact with other elderly and socialize with them. A place where they can be given the treatment they deserve and manage to enjoy what’s left in their lives. Our elderly is our treasure, nothing can compare the wisdom of experience they can impart to us and to our younger generation. Let’s treat them with respect, value them and show them love.

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4:07 PM | 0 comments